mimi's island

[s o t d]: Trouble

people have reminded me of the stages of grief and i must tell you i am the worst at anger. there's only one person i know of that has stayed angry with me and to this day, i am still begging for apologies from something that happened many many years ago. i don't know how to get mad...i don't know how to stay mad....and i don't know how to deal with it after. even worst of all...it kills me when someone is mad atme. when i try to be angry...tears come out. i have been this way since kindergarten and everyone would tease me that i was cry baby sally but i was really really mad, not sad. in high school, i tried to confront a teacher about a low grade and instead of banishing her to hell, i cried and ran away. and when i get mad at kylan, i have to shut my door after i yell because i can't turn around and finish it off (and i still cry when yelling takes everything out of me). when road ragers flick me off, i wave and smile back. okay i think i've given enough examples about me not good at being mad and only an expert at crying a river. i learned that from Justin. you know, Timberlake. so i'm learning anger and working on it.