wishes
[s o t d]: Wish I Didn't...by Angie Stone
joie and the family have left for maui and i am truly alone at home. kylan is off to school and i have spent the day in silence just sorting out more thoughts. sadly these days have become even more challenging. i'm disappointed that these low blows have come about but it can only indicate that there can only be good things ahead. i constantly think of all the heart that i have invested and compare that with what has become of it and in the end I'm finding that there is just no comparison. all that i've given is not worthy of this pain and what i've left behind is not worthy of the fight. i have fought a good fight but if i'm the only one rooting here then i am better left standing alone. its amazing where a break up can take you. it doesn't even have to be enlightening but its a realization that i could only be thankful for. the truth has truly set me free.