nothing pleasant
so sorry that i've had nothing pleasant or sugar-coated to post lately. lots of encouragement here and there has helped. i've learned from previous bumps in the road that ultimately every decision i make is still one i face alone. no matter how many bits and pieces of advice that i hear, it still solely rests in my thoughts. i've never found it so hard to talk about something and my problem lately is that i keep everything internalized. it's really not like me to stay so bottled up so forgive me for not reaching out as one would expect. in between emails and phone calls at work, sitting in traffic on the road, and while while falling in and out of sleep, i catch myself riddled with so many thoughts. i could fill pages but you would find i'm still going in circles.