mimi's island

Could you tell that I'm humming the bridal march? I guess not. Weeks ago I "complained" (such a strong word....mentioned?) that I was being avalanched by news of new babies and weddings, both of which I adore. But alongside these wedding news follows questions directed towards me...as in when will I be there...where they are. I always keep my happily ever after in mind but I am ever so cautious to pursue it without thought. I've witnessed far too many abruptly-encoutered and premature marriages and enough heartbreak and disappointment to cling to reality rather than fantasy. Not that I think happily ever after is not attainable.....but everything has its price doesn't it? This is sounding pessimistic and almost hopeless as I get further into it, but the bottom line is: I'd only like to get married once. Nothing quick and just for now and then bigger and better later or nothing almost sure and mabye settling...only a "yes, for sure, this is the one". People must feel this conviction once they've discovered it, hence the "spend the rest of my life with you" but that's only valid when its mutual. No relationship is smooth sailing everyday and marriage is not exempt from this truth. I'm scared of being trapped, unable to resolve difference....but the truth is if you're married - you work it out, no questions asked. I look at my parents and wonder if they are even a model for my happily ever and then I examine these fantasies...and realize it is mostly contrived by hollywood and dreams. And unfortunately marriages in Hollywood are the worst to look after. If there's anything I dream for a wedding, it is that nothing will bring it to end, only Happy Endings. On that note, check out these wedding statistics. Very interesting. To add, I hate it when people say, they "don't want to be a statistic". Aren't we all statistics of some sort? I'm very bad with analogies at times, hehehe. But HOLY CRAP, 43% end in divorce. Yikes...not a statistic I'd like to be a part of. How bout saying 57% live happily ever after :)