issues
i'm like my own shrink -- if took a timeline of my life, i could pinpoint all the causes and effects. i would have to say and many who know me well might be able to concur, as well, that my biggest insecurities lie with my relationships. i realize that i've barely had conistency with my friendships and the one constant that I DO have outside of family is exbf. perhaps thats why my attachemnt is so unrelenting. but the reason for my momentous epiphany amidst all this observing within the context of my recent drama.....is having to face the reality of another loss. i take avoidance very badly. i've had many instances where people near and dear to me have just abruptly stopped becoming a part of my life. its morbidly analgous to experiencing death but im sure not anyhwere near it. and both i fear and greive very deeply. i dare not say that anyone can deal with loss with ease but i contemplate these realities every day of my life.